realize what you deserve
never settle for anything less.

time's your enemy
it may heal a wound, but it won't hide a scar

You don't have any intentions
of finishing what you have started
Do you? Do you?
And at the start of something different
You realize just whats been missing
Do you? Do you?
You know all the games that you play
But yo don't realize how much you've changed
Do you? Do you?

 I used to smile a lot and talk about love,
now I'm all alone and my hair is long.
So long, I'll see you in a month or two.
I won't write about you.

So how you have managed to get under my skin, more than anyone ever did?

i've moved on
she's moved on
its your turn.

Would you wait if I wrote you a perfect song tonight?
To make your heart stand still and make your chest grow tight
But I'll never write a perfect line

if it was up to me

i would've figured you out
way before the year clocked out

oh, i hope you're waiting

so make me promises,
the kind i know you can't keep.
and while i'm losing my mind,
i hope you're home finding sleep
cause you and i both know that that's not the case
because the look on your face
gives all your secrets away.

this hand can write the words
as fast as i can think them up.
in a state of half awake,
i fill the page with all my frantic thoughts.
i hope one day you'll get to read
what i don't have the guts to say.

comment. okay?

I'd swim across Lake Michigan
I'd sell my shoes
I'd give my body to be back again
In the rest of the room
To be alone
With you

But I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know you're giving me up

When I got home, I was alone
And I counted stars on the ceiling
I fell in love with that feeling

I wish I could love myself, the way you loved me

“it’s not safe, stay away from follow me’s are everywhere.
in a world that lacks commitment you very quickly learn to justify your actions.
so follow the truth.”

I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time... For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp, watching falling stars... And yellow leaves, from the maple trees, that lined my street... Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper... And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird... And Janie... And Janie... And... Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday.

i did not give up, i did not let go.
i just finally realized that i deserve better
than someone like you.

This isn't a conversation about this being over. I'm not like, putting a period at the end of this. I'm putting like... an ellipsis on it.

you are an image in my mind, 
nothing more, nothing less.
The only thing real about you is your name.

This poetry makes me weak, doubtful
Questioning myself for what I am
Should I be ashamed of this time wasted.
My tears are masked by the palms of my hands.

I am not as deep as the cut on your wrist.
Nor shallow as the puddles on the sidewalk.

I am just content with being here. 
An existentialist. 
But when breathing gets old,
what will be left of my soul?

part of me wants to scream
and part of me wants to laugh,
both for the same reason:
this is an impossible situation

i've hit my limits,
and my calorie intake has started to take a hit as well
im not as comfortable with this as we all thought.

"I fancied you'd return the way you said,
but I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think i made you up inside my head.)"

i am two fools: for loving and for saying so in whiny poetry.

Sometimes I wish you'd pay more attention to my favorite songs, because the lyrics sing words that I'm too scared to say.

"What I want is to be needed.
What I need is to be indispensable to somebody.
Who I need is somebody that will eat up
all my free time, my ego, my attention.
Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction."

But listen carefully to the sound of your loneliness.
Like a heartbeat.. drives you mad.
In the stillness of remembering
what you had.

and then I saw your face
you're turning skin into a dirty secret
I watched the beauties, watched the fire
and the fire burn the beauty in their eyes
when I took the blame
we layed in ruins trying to quote your phrase
we're yelling, "someone's got the answers,
but I’d rather think there's nothing to be found"
if you knew I was dying would it change you?

What is it your heart is beating for. Because I am sure as hell it’s not me.

I feel like I've been hanging out in the rain
every second of everyday
every second of everyday
every second of everyday

I want a reason for the way things have to be
I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me

You're only sorry cause you got caught
and you're never happy cause you think you're not
and a stories no good without a thickening plot
so when the water finally settled you stirred it up
you fucked it up

commenttt

I love you, and I probably always will.
But, we go days without having a meaningful conversation.
And, I used to miss you so much when that happened,
but it never seemed like you missed me,
and I guess because of it I stopped missing you.

i didn't care that you left and abandoned me,
what hurts more is i would still die for you.

My heart pounds as I lay by your side
And I find that I am unable to hide
All these feelings that flow
In this basement, and in this dim light

You have a beautiful, beautiful smile,
The way it curls and collapses on your lips.
When you touch me I shake like a child,
It's late, I'm afraid you might leave,
'Cause sometimes it seems like you still don't believe me.
There's nothing I can do to concentrate,
It's so distracting, always thinking of you.

You're an emotional wreck
You don't know who you are
You never say what you mean
And your nights stay still
And then you come and call on me

you ended it with lets be friends.
you promised we would talk and hang out.
i said it wouldn't work. you persisted.
now you can't look me in the eye.
tell me, once again , are you living up to what you say?

i'm up all night and you know i'm right
i don't want to be the center of attention
for all of your late night conversations
i never saw you coming
and you know that's what you wanted
all your self-sufficiant, poor excuses
didn't back you up, and i figure:
what i've got isn't what you want
now i've tied my fingers tight with string
just to remind me not to think of you at night
i only fight with my consciousness and sub-concious thinking
that rationalize these useless thoughts that i am thinking
you paint me black with your fictious lack of self-esteem
"you're so sweet..."